Is this going to keep on happening? I feel like i cannot take it anymore. I’m getting more and more depressed as days goes by.
If i ever change, i will not the same anymore. But if i don’t, i will keep on hurting myself and others. What should i do?
I’m too afraid to lose S7. But i feel so tired sometimes but i just couldn’t bear to. Why am i born to be so sensitive? I’m so sick of myself. I won’t be able to have a partner because of my character. It’s either i better die early or i will be lonely for the rest of my life.
If i don’t change, i may eventually lose all my friends. Will that day come? I might have died from cancer first.
Stress from internal self and external source. I’m so depressed at work. My job scope is special and i actually enjoy because it’s what i like to do. But i hate the feeling when ppl say that i’m actually too young/junior to be doing all these. Ppl tell me i should be getting experience from the wards. Or i should be getting more exposure for me to work better in this job scope.
External ppl may felt like my job scope seems boring but it’s not exacty that simple. All the ppl around me are seniors, and they have much more experience than me. Therefore i felt very intimidated and i felt whatever i do is still not good enough. I wanna learn faster and better so that i can help my colleague.
I feel even more stress now that we change office. I’m no longer feeling happy at work. I’m dragging my feet to work everyday and i want my day to end faster. I really do like my job scope and i won’t be able to find another more positive working environment. As in my bosses are very understanding but I just felt that i’m not good enough.
My colleague say that i’m doing very well and i’m catching very fast. But i really don’t feel that. I want to be as good as she is.
I don’t know what to do.
